Tell Me How Lucky I Am To Work Here...

Now, before you go and get all self-righteous that I should be happy to have a job, I must tell you that I do know I’m in a (slightly) better position than lots of people. That’s not the point. The point is that every day I can see myself getting complacent and I know that I am so under-valued at this place it is scary.

For example, when I was up for my promotion a few years ago my VP told me that the company had failed me on multiple levels. That’s stuck with me and I see the instances where it is true again and again. It is very hard to have faith in a place when it telling you these things.

Every day I sit here with a wool sweater draped across my legs since it is freezing I know my skills are diminishing and it scares me. The even bigger problem is that I’m pretty picky about what kinds of things I would like to do if I wasn’t here. I’ve done the leaping before looking thing and now is not the time to try that again in terms of employment. Just because the place isn’t here doesn’t automatically mean it will be a better situation.

The level of frustration keeps growing and I’m not sure what to do about it. Hence this picture kind of sums everything up.